I'm feeling down

After high school graduation one would expect to enjoy freedom and apply to preferred universities and feel extremely happy. Well, atleast that's what I thought it would be like. But it is not even close to it. After high school , the pressure increases. I should have known earlier as I knew university was after high school. No I haven't got into any. But worse...I don't know where I'll get in!

Ever since I can remember I've been aching to get into med school. I want to be a doctor. InshAllah I will some day. When I was a kid I'd see sick people on TV in Africa and tell myself that some day I'll be a doctor and make sure they get free medical treatment InshAllah.

I'm also feeling down and worried because my final exams result is going to be out soon next week and I don't know what to expect. I'm leaving it all upto Allah(swt) . He's my only hope. Moreover I am writing SAT in June and I'm worried about that too as I did not study Math as a subject in high school ( we can opt for any subject we want to B| ). I thought SAT was supposed to be easy. My parents are expecting me to get a really good score this time as I could not the first time due to health issues.

I don't have any backup plan as to where I'll study if I don't get accepted in any of the universities of my choice in Qatar .I don't want to study in my native place amidst strikes and insecurity. I've lived all my life in Qatar and I know I'm not ready now for being elsewhere. I mean...I'm an introvert (sort of). I take my time to adjust ...a really long time that is. InshAllah my prayers will be accepted and I'll get into a university (that I like) in Qatar.

Plus while waiting for all the results and exams and worries to get over, I'm really bored. I have nothing to do. I sleep like 10 hours which is pathetic. I am awake the whole time except when I sit infront of SAT book though I want to ace it. So if you are reading this don't forget to keep me in your prayers .

 

Silhouette xx